night outs and day in(s) are in routine now and i am basket case. no clue what to conclude, am i doing wrong or right or by the way am i doing anything at all. fucking the system is not going to do any goods for me, but i have no other telltale right now, saying that i am screwed will be an understatement. just finding out how deep this hole is ,so that at the bottom, there will be some amity.